and his brother T. This was taken over 5 years ago, and oh how I could have never dreamed how things would change, for better and worse when this picture was taken.
I am sure you all have a picture like this, something you treasure as a tiny glimpse to your lifes most precious moments...times you hold dear. It's funny how as we view our life sometimes in pictures, memories or moments we often see things in such a different way. Hindsight...wishes, regrets or mistakes, hopes, blessings...seeing amazing ways God answered our prayers. Reminders of prayers still in motion. A million tiny miracles and those that bring you to your knees because they are overwhelming.
I am missing T, hoping he is ok~sure he is and just wanting to see his face. It's been a whole year now since he's at least started talking to me again. We just haven't talked about anything to serious, important or anything I really want to talk about. Trying to just let him be, get sometime for him to do whatever he needs to and I miss him. Praying he knows how thankful we are, I am for him...and I'm hoping he is thankful for me and would let me know.
Our family has so many blessings & the Lord is so faithful always. I hope that tomorrow as so many are giving thanks all over the country, that you will hold that thankfulness a little longer in your heart...and let it flow into this next year. I know that is how I want to feel and live. I forget sometimes just how blessed we are. Usually one hug from Nathan or wet kisses from Bella remind me pretty fast.
When we were at the genetic's lab last week there was a precious boy in a wheelchair that was tilted back. He couldn't speak, his body was in constant spasm's, and his mouth never closed all the way. He had a terrible cough that was constant and he was with a nurse. I think she was a home-health nurse. I know that even in seeing a precious child like that brings up so many emotions. Prayers for him and his family, his nurse...for comfort and peace for him. It's just there's always someone else have you noticed that makes whatever you are dealing with, even in the midst of deep pain or struggles...always someone who has it worse. Such a deeper pain or burden to carry.
I am so thankful for all of you, who pray, care and listen to me go on and on. Share, cry, make dumb jokes or sarcasim....my pleading.
I hope where ever you will be tomorrow, that you will know God loves you, deeply.